Sunday, July 17, 2016

Day 122


Thank you everyone for your kind wishes and prayers, I apologise for not visiting your blogs and leaving comments, I have missed you and most of your recent posts, I am sure they have been beautiful.
To you dearest C.B. I apologise for neglecting you, I miss you and think of you every day and I say a prayer for you each night. I hope you are enjoying your beautiful Summer in the U.K or perhaps in France with all of the delights of the warmer weather and lovely flowers? I hardly visit here anymore, I have been so busy, I have been checking my emails on my iPhone.

Matthew remains in hospital, there have been good days and bad days, more complications, too numerous to mention but we must be grateful as he was not expected to live. 
He is being transferred to another major hospital on Monday, for the first of four surgeries. When he had the second surgery due to infection and an abscess. his abdominal muscle had to be removed. As I mentioned the VacuSeal dressing failed, he haemorrhaged and he was left with a large gaping wound with edges which were not strong enough to be sutured together. 
He has this wound cleaned with saline, silver nitrate and packed with special gauze every day and the granular tissue is beginning to fill the void. This tissue is not strong so when he stands his bowel is herniated and will almost certainly push through the tissue. 
He is to have plastic surgery within the next week where some mesh will be sewn in place for support and a skin graft taken from his thigh sewn over the top. After bed rest he will be going to a Rehabilitation hospital until he is strong enough to come home.
When he regains some strength he will have another surgery to remove the granular tissue which is growing into and strangling his bowel, the next surgery is to hopefully bring the two sides of the wound sides together to be sutured and the final operation to reverse the colostomy surgery and re-join his colon. That is if all goes well and according to plan. I have to admire him, I don't know where he finds the strength and courage to go on, given all that he has been through and what is still ahead.
The photos above are of the path leading to the car park just visible on the left. It is quite chilly when I leave the hospital at night, you can see the aura of the frost around the lights, some stars and a glimpse of the moon. It is fresh after the air conditioning of the hospital and there is a beautiful fragrance in the air, so lovely. it is the lemon scent of the leaves and flowers of the Lemon Scented Eucalyptus or Eucalyptus Citriadora. These grand trees have been there for many years. You find beauty in the most unexpected places.

My condolences and wishes of sympathy to the people of Nice for those who were maliciously murdered and injured and to their families and friends. Yet another senseless act of violence.

Please take care everyone, I do think of you when I have the time.
Much love, Dianne ....♥

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

You have to trust. What else? If He was not watching, Matthew would have gone by now. Trust. Really hard. You have been through... so much. So... Keep praying. Have faith. Bite your lip. He's alive. Breathing. And very slowly, he might just surprise us all. Obviously, there's something very important for him to be kept alive by the Great One and we certainly don't know, will never know, what that is exactly. I am immensely proud of you as you must know by now. You are so alone; I feel very hurt inside and feel, often, your pain and fear. I pray often too because I have that confidence that whatever one asks for in faith, comes true, because He wants us to be happy. He only asks for faith the size of a mustard seed and a mustard seed is quite small, you know! Don't fade, don't fret. Smile with certainty each time you see Matthew and reassure him that he will slowly be on the mend in due time. Breathing deeply, deliberately and gently is the most important. Be modest in walking with your God and leave it in His hands as to what is best and as to what the doctors will be guided to do and to think about. 1 Thessalonians 5:17,18 says: "Pray constantly. Give thanks for everything." Constantly, in my humble opinion, can also mean for hours during the night. The scriptures indicated that your words are relayed back to him by angels. That is not to be considered lightly. What they say and report back, He listens to very seriously. There is more to life on this earth than the mere babbling of wayward human beings with what they think. God's ways and thoughts are far higher than the greatest man's ideas. He can make things happen that you could never anticipate in advance. A sudden change of doctor... or mode of treatment... You/we don't know God's thoughts. But it has happened to me, trust me, and I am still alive despite unbelievable odds. There have been just too much, too many coincidences too explain away in some other human-like way. That's why I write you. Faith - not knowledge. That is the hard one. No wonder Christ emphasised it. Through it wise ones are made foolish, humble ones are made wise. I pray for Matthew and you often. Lift your heads up. See that God is good. Everything else on this planet, by comparison, is a totally embarrassing, wicked state of affairs requiring His intervention to resolve which is very much, prophetically, due to occur soon. Happily for many. Take care, C.B.

dianne said...



Dearest C.B.Dear one, thank you, for once again you bless me with your gentle words of faith and comfort. It is always so lovely and reassuring to hear from you, so much to be learned from your wise words. I trust that you are well and happy wherever you may be? I hoped that you would stop by, I sometimes believe that you are one of God's special messengers. I am so grateful that Matthew was resuscitated more than once when his heart arrested and against all odds has survived. Yes, with many complications but alive and breathing and very much whole, the Matthew whom we know and love. I try to be brave for his sake, though many times I waver but I always encourage him to look past all of his current problems and hope that the future will hold much for him. It's a small world, he had a visit from a volunteer who visits very ill patients in the hospital, it turned out to be Matthew's fifth year medical pharmacology lecturer from university. It was a tearful but happy reunion. I am not completely alone as I have my younger son Andrew and my daughter Rebecca for support. Matthew and I both thank you for your prayers and graciousness. Yes, there is much more to this life and the world around us, we just have open our hearts and look more deeply. We don't have much control over our destinies, we must be the best and kindest people we can be. You once alluded to having had a serious event in your life which was devastating though you never elaborated and you have mentioned this again in your comment. I give thanks to God that he spared you and allowed you to live. Though we have never met but our paths have crossed, I feel extremely blessed that we have shared so many thoughts, feelings and words and we share a mutual respect and affection. My life would have never been complete without you in it, I love you more than you will ever know.
Take care dear one, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Much love, your friend Dianne ❤️

MARTY said...

with all the troubles you have with Matthew, you don't forget the people of Nice ! you are a very special and human person Dianne !
I think of you and Matthew and hope with you for a better future for you and your son
bisous Dianne

dianne said...

Marty dear, thank you for your kind and thoughtful words, it is so lovely of you to visit and think of us. This whole situation with Matthew has been devastating and is ongoing without any guarantees for his future. I feel for the people of Nice, how terribly sad and frightening for them,they didn't stand a chance of escaping. Our world is changing and doesn't feel safe any more. Take care.
bisous dear Marty. xoxoxo ❤️

Yannis Politopoulos said...

Dear Dianne,

Mattew will be alright soon.
Because he is very strong and we all love him.
We are writing his name every day in the seaside.

We love you.
Yannis & Vania Politopoulos

dianne said...

Dearest Yannis and Vania thank you for the love you send, you are two beautiful people with loving hearts. Thank you for writing Matthew's name every day in the seaside, he loves the sandy beaches and the sea, it will mean so much to him. When he was free from most of his leads and monitors a few of the doctors and nurses from ICU wheeled his bed out onto the balcony so that he could smell the fresh air, see the sky and feel the sunshine. He was so overwhelmed he burst into tears as he thought he would never see outside the hospital again. How kind they were to do that for him. In the room he was in before he was transferred he had a great view of the sky from his bed and enjoyed looking at the sky and the night sky and stars from his bed. He loves nature, trees, the ocean, when he is well enough to come home I will take him to the seaside.
Love you both too, Dianne xxxxxx❤️

Yannis Politopoulos said...

Dear Dianne,

We want to thank you and Matthew for your kind words.
Our today post is dedicated to Matthew.

Our best wishes.
We have you in our hearts.

Love.
Yannis and Vania Politopoulos

dianne said...

Thank you dear Yannis and Vania for your kind words and thoughtfulness in dedicating your beautiful poem to Matthew, you are very good and generous people. I have forwarded your message and poem to Matthew, he will be most grateful and I'm sure it will cheer him up. He is probably asleep now.
Love to you both, Dianne xoxoxo ❤️

dianne said...

Dear Yannis and Vania , Matthew has had a bad week, first the transfer to the new hospital, then being moved twice from a single room to a shared room, hardly giving him time to settle in. There is a difference of opinion between the original surgeon and the Plastic Surgery Team as to how to proceed. He would choose the Plastics suggestion which would mean no skin graft and one less surgery, I feel a second opinion is required. He is not very happy, it is his body and he seems to have no say in the matter. Once again he thanks you and feels both touched and honoured that you would write this poem and dedicate to him. He sends you both his profound thanks and love.
Love and thanks, Dianne and Matthew.
xxxxxx ❤️

foam said...

Oh, Dianne! I think of you and Michael a lot. He seems to be such a brave young man .. like his mother. xxx (hugs and kisses, my friend)

dianne said...

Thank you dear Foamy for thinking of us and for your kind words. Yes, Matthew is s very brave young man, he must have so much inner strength to endure all he has been through, yet he is a very sensitive person and I know he is afraid of what the future may hold for him...yet he never complains. I don't have his strength, I'm sure I would have folded by now given the amount of complications and pain he has suffered. His abdominal skin graft surgery may go ahead on Monday, providing his pneumonia has gone. He won't be having the mesh inserted as that will interfere with the stoma reversal later on if possible. He cannot have the granular tissue which is invading his bowel removed yet as it is a very lengthy operation, major surgery and he wouldn't survive, so he will have to build up his strength and wait about nine months. I find it difficult to comprehend that so many procedures have gone wrong. I hope you, Mr Foam and your boys are all well, our children are so precious.
Hugs and kisses dear friend Foamy xxxxxx❤️

♥ Łucja-Maria ♥ said...

Dear Dianne!
Thank you very much, despite the many problems with the disease Beloved Son Matthew, you find time to write to me. I am my thoughts with you. I pray for the health of your Son Matthew. Good God watches over him.
I kiss you and greet:)
Lucja

dianne said...

Dear Lucja
Thank you for your kind and thoughtful words and prayers for Matthew. I wanted to visit you as I have missed you and your beautiful blog, it was lovely to see your beautiful flowers again, good for my soul.
Much love and kisses to you, Dianne xxxxxx ❤️

Marisa said...

Dear dianne, I am praying for the help of your son. My thoughts are with you in this difficult time my friend.
Sending you lots of love.
Marisa.

Marisa said...

Dear dianne, I am praying for the help of your son. My thoughts are with you in this difficult time my friend.
Sending you lots of love.
Marisa.

dianne said...

Marisa dear friend thank you for your kind thoughts and prayers. It is a difficult time for us both, I look forward to the time when Matthew's health is much improved.
Lots of love,
Dianne
xoxoxo. ♥️