Sunday, July 31, 2016

Day 136


Thank you everyone once more for your prayers and kind wishes for Matthew. He underwent surgery on Monday to have a skin graft taken from the front of his thigh to cover his abdominal wound which was still quite open and covered only with granular tissue. This kind of tissue is not strong enough to prevent his bowel from herniating through his abdominal wall. He seemed in good spirits on Monday night, though the PCA was only just keeping his pain under control, surprisingly his thigh was the most painful. 
By Thursday night he was feeling unwell, having difficulty breathing though he was being given oxygen.  He was complaining about pain in his right lung and when examined by the doctor he heard Creps in his lower lung, eventually a saline and Ventolin nebuliser was ordered. 
On Friday his condition had worsened, so much that his temperature had risen to over 40 degrees Celsius and the tachycardia had returned, his heart rate having risen to 166 BPM. He was put on very strong IV antibiotics and IV saline and glucose. He is being monitored very closely because of his temperature, tachycardia and he now has pneumonia. 
On Saturday morning the dressing was removed from his abdomen and unfortunately the skin graft has not  taken/adhered, it came off with the dressing. Thrown away, along with our hopes. What a waste of surgery, his skin graft, the pain he has had and is still enduring. 
We are still waiting for answers to explain how this could happen. Yet another disaster after so many complications. Matthew was very down on Saturday night and depressed tonight and I am very concerned for his health, how he is coping and now what can be done. Where do we go from here? 
I await some answers from the medical profession.
Much love, Dianne 
Image - The Atrium at the Hospital-Some green-space for the patients to enjoy, 

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Day 122


Thank you everyone for your kind wishes and prayers, I apologise for not visiting your blogs and leaving comments, I have missed you and most of your recent posts, I am sure they have been beautiful.
To you dearest C.B. I apologise for neglecting you, I miss you and think of you every day and I say a prayer for you each night. I hope you are enjoying your beautiful Summer in the U.K or perhaps in France with all of the delights of the warmer weather and lovely flowers? I hardly visit here anymore, I have been so busy, I have been checking my emails on my iPhone.

Matthew remains in hospital, there have been good days and bad days, more complications, too numerous to mention but we must be grateful as he was not expected to live. 
He is being transferred to another major hospital on Monday, for the first of four surgeries. When he had the second surgery due to infection and an abscess. his abdominal muscle had to be removed. As I mentioned the VacuSeal dressing failed, he haemorrhaged and he was left with a large gaping wound with edges which were not strong enough to be sutured together. 
He has this wound cleaned with saline, silver nitrate and packed with special gauze every day and the granular tissue is beginning to fill the void. This tissue is not strong so when he stands his bowel is herniated and will almost certainly push through the tissue. 
He is to have plastic surgery within the next week where some mesh will be sewn in place for support and a skin graft taken from his thigh sewn over the top. After bed rest he will be going to a Rehabilitation hospital until he is strong enough to come home.
When he regains some strength he will have another surgery to remove the granular tissue which is growing into and strangling his bowel, the next surgery is to hopefully bring the two sides of the wound sides together to be sutured and the final operation to reverse the colostomy surgery and re-join his colon. That is if all goes well and according to plan. I have to admire him, I don't know where he finds the strength and courage to go on, given all that he has been through and what is still ahead.
The photos above are of the path leading to the car park just visible on the left. It is quite chilly when I leave the hospital at night, you can see the aura of the frost around the lights, some stars and a glimpse of the moon. It is fresh after the air conditioning of the hospital and there is a beautiful fragrance in the air, so lovely. it is the lemon scent of the leaves and flowers of the Lemon Scented Eucalyptus or Eucalyptus Citriadora. These grand trees have been there for many years. You find beauty in the most unexpected places.

My condolences and wishes of sympathy to the people of Nice for those who were maliciously murdered and injured and to their families and friends. Yet another senseless act of violence.

Please take care everyone, I do think of you when I have the time.
Much love, Dianne ....♥

Friday, June 10, 2016

Thank You...


I would write you a poem
But I cannot find the words
For sadness has robbed my heart
Of the words I wish to express
Feelings of certainty that I once felt
Now taken from me
Just fear and doubt instead
I want to sense the beauty of the flowers
That abound, feel the softness of their petals
Their fragrance that surrounds
Feel the warmth of the sunshine
As it wraps me in its light
Feel the comfort of knowing
That the end will be all right
To take away the shadows
That are haunting me each night…

Much love Dianne ... ♥

For dearest C.B, thank you for your visits my friend, it is comforting to feel you nearby.

Thank you dear friends for your messages of warmth and kindness.
My dear son Matthew remains in the ICU, with many complications, further surgeries planned and a skin graft in time to close the large, open incision.

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Saturday, April 30, 2016

An Update On My Son Matthew

Matthew in happier, healthier days.

Week six begins and Matthew remains in the Intensive Care / Critical Care Unit. He had further abdominal surgery last week as the wound was not healing properly and had to be reopened and cleaned of infection and accumulated debris from internal bleeding; this was posing yet another risk to his life. 
The 23centimetre incision has been left open and a Vacu Seal (Negative Pressure Wound Therapy) dressing has been applied to help the wound heal more efficiently. He is still left with blood clots in his lungs and arteries, tachycardia, kidney problems and hypertension, none of which he had before this medical emergency.
I hope with ongoing treatment these problems can all be resolved.
Once more thank you all again for your words and wishes of kindness.

Much love, Dianne  xoxoxo  ♥

Monday, April 11, 2016

Enya - Pale Grass Blue

From the 2015 Album - Dark Sky Island

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Sense and Sensibility - "The Dreame"


Or scorn or pity on me take,
I must the true redemption make,
I am undone tonight.
Love, in a subtle dream disguised,
Hath both my heart and me surprised,
Whom never yet be durst attempt awake;
Nor will he tell me for whose sake
He did me the delight or spite,
But leaves me to inquire
In all my wild desire
Of sleep again, who was his aid,
And sleep so guilty and afraid
And since he dares not come within my sight.

Music composed by Patrick Doyle
Sung by Jane Eaglen
Text from the poem 'The Dream' written by Benjamin 'Ben' Jonson
(c. 11 June 1572 – 6 August 1637)

I have posted this beautiful piece of music and song as it is one of my favourites from the film "Sense and Sensibility". This is the song Marianne sings when Colonel Brandon has the pianoforte delivered to Barton Cottage and she must learn to play the music and words of the song before he returns. In the film Marianne (Kate Winslet) performs the song with the word 'relation' substituted for 'redemption'.
I have many search inquiries about this song on Feedjit, another reason for posting it here.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

A Ray of Hope

My dear son Matthew is still very ill and not out of danger but the breathing tube from the ventilator/respirator (part of the Life Support System) has been removed and he is now able to breathe on his own with the help of oxygen and an oxygen infusion which is given three hourly to help his lungs which are very congested - also physiotherapy.  He is still receiving dialysis as his kidneys are not functioning properly, IV antibiotics for the infection, pain meds, fluids, liquid food through a tube and other IV medications to keep him alive. Though he is conscious his communication is very confused which is a concern but understandable given the circumstances and I hope in time his brain function will return to normal.
This all began with a hole in his colon which was diseased and infected, the colon bursting allowing the toxic contents to spill into his abdominal cavity thus causing sepsis which invaded his body then causing multiple organ failure. He underwent emergency surgery but there were complications. This affected all major organs, his blood pressure dropped dangerously low, he developed severe tachycardia and was in a coma for almost two weeks. The diseased part of his bowel was removed with a colostomy operation and he now has a stoma which I hope is only temporary for he has been through enough. We just take each day as it comes and hope that there is some improvement as I want my beautiful son back home with me, his family and friends.

Sincerely, your friend Dianne.
xoxoxo   ♥

Tulip image from Internet - please enlarge