Friday, June 10, 2016

Thank You...

I would write you a poem
But I cannot find the words
For sadness has robbed my heart
Of the words I wish to express
Feelings of certainty that I once felt
Now taken from me
Just fear and doubt instead
I want to sense the beauty of the flowers
That abound, feel the softness of their petals
Their fragrance that surrounds
Feel the warmth of the sunshine
As it wraps me in its light
Feel the comfort of knowing
That the end will be all right
To take away the shadows
That are haunting me each night…

Much love Dianne ... ♥

For dearest C.B, thank you for your visits my friend, it is comforting to feel you nearby.

Thank you dear friends for your messages of warmth and kindness.
My dear son Matthew remains in the ICU, with many complications, further surgeries planned and a skin graft in time to close the large, open incision.

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Saturday, April 30, 2016

An Update On My Son Matthew

Matthew in happier, healthier days.

Week six begins and Matthew remains in the Intensive Care / Critical Care Unit. He had further abdominal surgery last week as the wound was not healing properly and had to be reopened and cleaned of infection and accumulated debris from internal bleeding; this was posing yet another risk to his life. 
The 23centimetre incision has been left open and a Vacu Seal (Negative Pressure Wound Therapy) dressing has been applied to help the wound heal more efficiently. He is still left with blood clots in his lungs and arteries, tachycardia, kidney problems and hypertension, none of which he had before this medical emergency.
I hope with ongoing treatment these problems can all be resolved.
Once more thank you all again for your words and wishes of kindness.

Much love, Dianne  xoxoxo  ♥

Monday, April 11, 2016

Enya - Pale Grass Blue

From the 2015 Album - Dark Sky Island

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Sense and Sensibility - "The Dreame"

Or scorn or pity on me take,
I must the true redemption make,
I am undone tonight.
Love, in a subtle dream disguised,
Hath both my heart and me surprised,
Whom never yet be durst attempt awake;
Nor will he tell me for whose sake
He did me the delight or spite,
But leaves me to inquire
In all my wild desire
Of sleep again, who was his aid,
And sleep so guilty and afraid
And since he dares not come within my sight.

Music composed by Patrick Doyle
Sung by Jane Eaglen
Text from the poem 'The Dream' written by Benjamin 'Ben' Jonson
(c. 11 June 1572 – 6 August 1637)

I have posted this beautiful piece of music and song as it is one of my favourites from the film "Sense and Sensibility". This is the song Marianne sings when Colonel Brandon has the pianoforte delivered to Barton Cottage and she must learn to play the music and words of the song before he returns. In the film Marianne (Kate Winslet) performs the song with the word 'relation' substituted for 'redemption'.
I have many search inquiries about this song on Feedjit, another reason for posting it here.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

A Ray of Hope

My dear son Matthew is still very ill and not out of danger but the breathing tube from the ventilator/respirator (part of the Life Support System) has been removed and he is now able to breathe on his own with the help of oxygen and an oxygen infusion which is given three hourly to help his lungs which are very congested - also physiotherapy.  He is still receiving dialysis as his kidneys are not functioning properly, IV antibiotics for the infection, pain meds, fluids, liquid food through a tube and other IV medications to keep him alive. Though he is conscious his communication is very confused which is a concern but understandable given the circumstances and I hope in time his brain function will return to normal.
This all began with a hole in his colon which was diseased and infected, the colon bursting allowing the toxic contents to spill into his abdominal cavity thus causing sepsis which invaded his body then causing multiple organ failure. He underwent emergency surgery but there were complications. This affected all major organs, his blood pressure dropped dangerously low, he developed severe tachycardia and was in a coma for almost two weeks. The diseased part of his bowel was removed with a colostomy operation and he now has a stoma which I hope is only temporary for he has been through enough. We just take each day as it comes and hope that there is some improvement as I want my beautiful son back home with me, his family and friends.

Sincerely, your friend Dianne.
xoxoxo   ♥

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Thursday, March 24, 2016

Dear Friends...

Dear friends, just to let you know that I may not be around to visit your blogs for a while. My dear son Matthew is gravely ill in hospital in the Intensive Care Unit fighting for his life after complications from emergency major surgery.  His immune system is already compromised from the Multiple Sclerosis so that is not helping him at all. Yesterday every hour of life was a blessing, he is very ill and on Life Support and dialysis to give his heart and body a rest. We are just taking each hour and day as it comes, I don't know what the outcome will be. The nurses and doctors are wonderful, they are caring for him 24hours a day, the Councillor has been very comforting.
My daughter and other son have been of great support to me and Matthew's father.
I was called into the hospital at 6.45AM yesterday as his condition had deteriorated, he has stabilised a little but is not out of danger. Not much we can do but be at the hospital and go in to see him when we are allowed.
I will get back to you soon, hopefully with some better news.

Sincerely, your friend Dianne
xoxoxo   ♥

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Every Day - Tous les Jours

Every day I look for you
And wonder how you are
It seems like such a long time
Since you have passed my way
Once were words of kindness
And sweet posies of flowers
Now the silent hours
You feel so far away
Somewhere in the distance
Lost to me in time
I wonder do you realise?
Just how much I miss you
The measure of my sadness
When your words go unsaid
Such a feeling of emptiness
As I feel you drift away
Should I try to forget you?
For my hopes seem all in vain
And wishing for your presence
Only causes me much pain
I wonder if your thoughts
Ever echo my name?
For your name resounds
Within my thoughts
Every day …

Poem - Dianne Dawes - ♥
For my friend C.B. wherever you may be.
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