Sunday, February 24, 2013

An Explanation

Some of you have kindly left messages and e-mails asking if I am OK since I have not posted anything here and have not visited some of your blogs. Thank you for that kindness.
I am sad and have been unwell for some time since I have lost the friendship of someone I cared for deeply. I don't know why this has happened but it has affected me profoundly. 
There was no Goodbye. Something I did, something I said, something I neglected to say, perhaps I was too outspoken, perhaps a misunderstanding...surely nothing said that was worth ending a friendship of five years? ... I am still trying to understand what has happened.

In recent weeks I have come very close to deleting this blog a number of times as it seemed to have no relevance any more. It does hold many memories for me, mostly happy but some sadness as well. Many of the poems were written for this friend, I thought he would always be my friend but one cannot be too sure of anything it would seem.
Most of my prose and poems and many of the images only exist here, yes, I have some poems written in my journal but not all of them. It would be no great loss if some of my dreary poems went but when it came to deleting my entire blog I could not destroy all of my poems and prose, many of those words I have written are so much a part of me, a part of my memories, whether happy or sad. 
I could not destroy all of your wonderful comments and encouragement you have left for me. One of my friends Foamy, has been with me from the very beginning, way back to August, 2008 when this journey began. Some friends from then have come and gone, others stop by occasionally and I have been so fortunate to have been found by all of my new friends/followers along the way...especially Elia, Leovi and Juan who never fail to visit me almost every day. I thank you all for your wonderful comments, messages and most of all your friendship. Please bear with me a little longer, I hope to be back soon, once I get my heart and head back to some kind of normality.

Sincerely, Dianne ...  ♡

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38 comments:

Yvonne Vergouwe said...

Het is nooit leuk om een vriendschap te zien stranden. Heel veel sterkte in deze moeilijke tijd, en hopelijk gaat het allemaal weer goed komen.

Groetjes Von

MARTY said...

Dianne, please write write write, happy or sad words ! don't worry !
this can help you and you see how many friends you have and read your poems ! this is perhaps the way to find a new light to follow !
I'm waiting for you and hope you will be better soon !
bisous dianne

foam said...

Glad to see this post. Just yesterday, I was noticing that you had not posted in a couple of weeks which is unlike you. I remember encouraging you to start blogging. I'm going to now encourage you to not delete the blog. You can close it to where only you would see the blog, but I know that many of us would really miss you.
Bloggers do come and go. But it is different when one is specifically dumped. I know you had gotten close to this particular blogger and I am very sorry he had the ability to hurt you so.

Giga said...

Spotkało Cie w życiu coś bardzo smutnego, ale nie trać nas. To nie będzie dobre dla żadnej ze stron. Pozdrawiam ciepltko.
Happened to you in life, something very sad, but do not lose us. It will not be good for either party. Regards warm.

Joop Zand said...

Het is altijd triest om een vriendschap te verliezen en zeker als die zo onverwachts komt...... Lieve Dianne ik wens je sterkte.

Lieve groetjes en een dikke knuffel, Joop x x

Tony Bayfield said...

Prends soin de toi, chère Dianne.

:.tossan© said...

Continue, because we are all together hand in hand, even if the ocean separates us geographically. kiss

Leovi said...

I hope you have recovered from your illness. Yes it must be painful the situation they're going through. But all will be well soon.
Besos.

J Cosmo Newbery said...

Sorry to heard you are feeling down, Dianne. Hope it is brief and that you rebound soon.

dianne said...

Bedankt lieve Von voor uw vriendelijke woorden, ja het is triest als een vriendschap eindigt. Ik hoop voor gelukkiger dagen.
Hartelijke groeten mijn vriend
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Marty for your kindness and encouragement, yes I can see I have many friends here.

I cannot find the words, any words at present, I have probably said too much, please give me a little time and I hope I will be back.

bisous dear Marty

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dearest Foamy for your kind words, your encouragement and your help. Yes, it was you and few of my old blog friends who convinced me to start this blog and I have so loved being here and communicating with all of you.
I am sure you have guessed who this person is but I won't ever mention his name here, that would be unfair and unkind to him... after all he has been my friend for such a long time.
Yes it would seem I have been dumped, I should not put too much faith in some people.
I have not fully decided what to do with this blog, I must not be too impulsive, I must think this through.
Take care little sweet pea.
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Drogi Przyjacielu Giga , dziękuję za miłe słowa, tak mi smutno, a ja nie chcę stracić żadnego z was, ale w chwili obecnej trudno mi znaleźć energię i inspirację na drogę z tego bloga ... Potrzebuję trochę czasu.
Ciepłe pozdrowienia przyjacielu
xoxoxo ♡

Dear friend Giga , thank you for your kind words, yes I am sad and I don't want to lose any of you but at present I can hardly find the energy or inspiration to go on with this blog... I need some time.
Warm greetings my friend
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Joop for your kind words, you are always such a lovely man...the strength you send is welcomed, I need it.
Yes, sad because it was so unexpected, no sign that anything was wrong.
Warm greetings and a hug for you too.

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear tossan , for your kind words, so lovely of you to say...yes, we are all so close. I am trying to be well again, I just need some time.
kisses
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Leovi for your kind words, you never let me down, you are a good friend.
Yes it is painful and I hope all will be well soon.
Besos
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear J Cosmo for your kind words, it was nice of you to stop by. Yes, I hope this debilitating sadness passes soon, don't worry about me I will bounce back and soon be writing my dreary poems once again.

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Tony for coming here and for your kind words. I do not know what happened with him, or why, I just know I'm hurting, I thought we were ok. His disappearance was so unexpected. I had faith in him and no reason to doubt him ...
Take care my dear friend
xoxoxo ♡

Enrique G.A. said...

Hello Dianne, I can only say that much encouragement and muschas forces ....
Always, siemprore we must continue forward.
Greetings. -

dianne said...

Hello dear Enrique , thank you for your kind words of encouragement...I know I must move forward, living in the past and hoping for someone I have lost is making me too unhappy.
Warm greetings
xoxoxo ♡

Elia said...

Dear Dianne

Although it is hard right now, you have to keep writing, I think this window to the world from the corner of your heart, it really helps you heal your wounds and see colors beyond ...
do not forget to write your feelings cough, your poems,
because we are all chained to our hands, but you do not see them,

sincere kisses

besos

^^











JUAN FUENTES said...

Al desnudar tus sentimientos,quizas lograste tranquilizar tu espíriru,
pero el tiempo será él único que lo conseguira.
Tu sencibilidad te estará golpeando con tus recuerdos.
Un fuerte abrazo

Łucja-Maria said...

Hello Dear Dianne !!!!
I read your post yesterday and I read again today.
Dianne not thought about eliminating your blog.
This bad idea.
Here are your poems, thoughts, here are your friends, who you really love.
You are a wonderful person. I love you.
He was not worthy of your love.
I also wanted to rid blog. Friends have asked me not to do it anymore.
I listened to them.
I send kisses.
Lucia

JUAN FUENTES said...

Al llegar a la senitud,lo único que podemos retener es nuestras fantasias,dejarla volar,
és nuestras mejos medicina.
Un fuerte abrazo

Leovi said...

Yes, Dianne, I'm sure you will overcome these adverdidades and soon again enjoy your exquisite poems of love and life. Kisses.

Craftsman of light said...


Hello my dear friend Dianne,
i've come to visit your blog after a long while,it does sadden me to learn about the things you're undergoing/undergone.....

and there's one thing i know about you ....
is
that you've a great love and kinship for the others,
your vision about life in general is compassionate,
you've a great deal of honesty,
a strong sense of friendship.

And i'm sure you can work this out.... ' your heart and head has all it needs to see you through the tunnel....'.....hugs and kisses.
col

J Cosmo Newbery said...

Dreary? Why dreary?

dianne said...

Elia dearest friend, little Princesse, thank you for your kindness, your thoughtful words and good advice.
I will write again soon, I hope I will, at present I can only write of sad feelings and they are better left unsaid.

Love and kisses ^^
Dianne.

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Gracias, querido Juan por sus amables palabras, todo lo que queda son los recuerdos y me atormentan, tal vez con el tiempo me va a olvidar.
Abrazos mi amigo

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Lucia for the love and your thoughtful words you send me.
I am so happy that you did not end your blog, it is too beautiful and valuable to close.
I won't close my blog, there are many good memories here, it is a chronicle of my life through poems, a journey of good times and not so good.
I would not destroy all of the comments which have been left here by you and all of my friends, they are special to me.
I just need to take a break for a little while.

I send kisses too
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Gracias Juan querido amigo, voy a pensar en fantasías y dejar que mi tristeza volar, es una buena idea a mi amigo.
Muchos abrazos
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear Leovi for your kind words, yes I will overcome this and hopefully write better poems.
Besos

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thank you dear col for your kindness and thoughtful words, I know you are always there for me, I feel your presence.
I am sure there will be some light at the end of the tunnel, I just have to look for it.

Love and hugs dear friend
xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Dear J Cosmo , my poems are dreary because I always write about sadness, there is not much happiness in my life.
I have tried to challenge myself and write about other subjects, occasionally there is a glimmer of hope and this shines through in the words that I write, sadly it never lasts for long.

xoxoxo ♡

ira said...

Piękne są twoje wiersze!
Dziękuję, że wciąż jesteś na blogu nie możesz nas opuścić.Czas goi rany i znowu nastanie dobry dzień.
Dziękuje też za odwiedziny na moim blogu.
Droga przyjaciółko bądź zawsze z nami, przesyłam całuski Irena.

rdl said...

hope u r doin better. nothing u did i'm sure. try not to dwell, try to let go of the pain and reach into yourself - where you will find love & strength to go on. be well.

dianne said...

Dziękuję kochanie Irene za miłe słowa zachęty. Tak, nie będzie lepsze dni i tak czekamy na nich i mam nadzieję, że mogę napisać ponownie.
Wysłać pozdrowienia, uściski i pocałunki.

xoxoxo ♡

dianne said...

Thanks for stopping by dear rdl and for your kind and thoughtful words. I cannot think of anything I did to deserve this abandonment.
Yes, I am doing better, time helps soften the hurt and soon I hope I shall feel whole again.
You take care too. :)

xoxoxo ♡