Wednesday, April 8, 2009

LONGING ...


Behind closed eyes
if you only knew
I avert my gaze
so close to you
For if you saw
you would surely know
My quickening pulse
a blush that shows
My flights of fantasy
On wings
Straight to you
My secret longing
all for you
Deep in my heart
out of view
Heartache breaks
my hopes of you
I wait and hope
for a sign from you
And sadness pools
and blurs my view
Waiting and wanting
my dreams of you
Eyes wide open
I look at you
My searching eyes
so close and true
Does my secret show?
I wish I knew
Should I tell you?
If you only knew
Should I tell you?
If I only knew...

Poem by Dianne

25 comments:

Diane said...

Beautiful. We never outgrow that unsure feeling, do we? :)

dianne said...

Thanks Diane dear, I'm pleased that you liked my poem; I'm happy with this one myself.

No we never outgrow that unsure feeling, we want to say something but fear if we do, the object of our affection wont feel the same so we wait for signs from him.

Sadly sometimes we wait and wait. ♡

ANNA-LYS said...

Simply beautiful, Dianne!

PS dare to tell him DS

Sarah Sofia Ganborg said...

veru nice poem!!!
I also enjoyed the paintings below.
Am on the way to Paris now, after having had B&B-guests and renovating...

have a really nice Ester with lots of sunshine!
love, sarah sofia
P.S. you might wanna look at my B&B-blog, there are some pictures of where we used to live...

Sarah Sofia Ganborg said...

another thing: check out my linking post: you're in it as well!

dianne said...

Thanks Anna-Lys , I'm so pleased you liked my poem.

I was thinking about my 'celtic knight', my love from the past and how I felt when we first met.

Just reliving some memories.
You know what its like, there is a mutual attraction between both and you look at each other and its just too much to stare into each others eyes as there is some shyness from both... even though the attraction is electric and palpable.
You see I have very soft, expressive eyes and they give my feelings away.

Anyway he told me how beautiful I was, not just physically but that I was a beautiful person and how lovely he thought I was.
You see I am a very friendly, affectionate person and fun to be with...I get on with most people, he and I just got on so well...like we had known each other for years.
After the initial shyness we were very comfortable together but it was exciting as well.

I met him when he had split from his partner.
I did tell him how I felt and I waited two years for him, he did love me I know that but he had this former partner, with whom he finally reconciled.

We remained friends for a long time after, until she put a stop to our contact...well you cant blame her.

I dont know why I thought of him last night, loneliness maybe, just reminiscing. ♡

dianne said...

Thanks Sarah Sofia pleased you liked the poem and paintings.
I did leave a message for you over at your blog.
I am going to link with your main blog.
Will check out the B&B website, I always enjoy your photos, such a beautiful place.
Have a lovely time in Paris, how I envy you, I would go off to the south and have a wander through some of the beautiful areas in the paintings. I would love to see Monet's garden.
Have a lovely Easter my friend.
Love Dianne X ♡

ANNA-LYS said...

Oh Dianne <3

/t. said...

wow dianne,

that's really good

¤ ¤ ¤

/t.

dianne said...

/t. dear, do you really think that my poem gets a 'wow', I'm happy with that if you are?

I am pleased with it and how it came together as well, most verses last night and then the rest fell into place while I was having my morning shower...had to hop out quickly to get it down on paper before I forgot.

Inspiration comes in the strangest of places. ♡

dianne said...

Oh well Anna-Lys thank you but dont feel sad for me, I'm over him now and these things happen, I guess its all character building as I am not bitter about it, just another one of life's disappointments. ♡

dianne said...

Thank you Boney . ♡

/t. said...

i do, dianne

this one is inspired(!)

in my experience, the best stuff always 'falls into place' (easily) but not always easy to get there

pain so often is the doorway, per poor modigliani, van gogh, and friends... many, many artists and poets suffer in their quest for 'ease' -- it's just the way, or so it seems

¤ ¤ ¤

/t.

foam said...

this really is very very beautiful, dianne ..

Pete Bogs said...

wow... I can really feel the longing in that poem!

dianne said...

Well thank you /t. dear, that is an honour coming from you.

We all have these life experiences and emotions but sometimes how we feel is difficult to put into words. There are many subtle feelings here but I felt I came close to portraying how I felt. ♡

dianne said...

Thank you Foamie my dear friend, I'm so pleased you liked it; as I have said I am really happy with this one myself, I was able to express how I felt and I think you could all identify with the feelings. ♡

dianne said...

Thanks Pete dear, so nice to see you again.
Yes there was 'longing' for such a long time.
It can be awkward yet exciting when we are first aware of the consciousness of love for another person and you suspect they feel the same about you from their gestures and manner towards you...but you are too shy to say anything...well he did make the first move and then their was no doubt in my mind.
But sadly there was no happy ending. ♡

ANNA-LYS said...

Easter Hug
lots!!

Fantastic Forrest said...

Dianne -
Thanks for posting that poem on my site today! We will wear him down and make him put it back up at least as an archive. Resistance is useless. Bwah hah hah!

FF

dianne said...

Fantastic Forrest -

Yes I loved that poem so much I decided to find a copy of it...so pleased I did as the words have a personal resonance for me.

I thought the blog would always be there, such a lovely place to visit, many beautiful posts to look back on.
Maybe the Colonel will have a change of heart and keep it as an archive...maybe. ♡

Dianne

dianne said...

Same to you Anna-Lys left an Easter greeting at your blog for you. ♡

The Mess said...

Some loose thinking I got this evening;

What if some gal I known has ever written such beautiful poems..

dianne said...

Dearest M , I dont know how to answer this for you...maybe some girl has felt this way about but was not sure enough to tell you of her feelings, its very difficult when you arent sure how someone feels about you...so you wait in silence hoping to be noticed. ♡

The Mess said...

Somehow I think it's more difficult for a girl to express for him that she is interested.. but not so much that he think you actually are :-)

We boys can always rescue ourselves from looking stupid with humour if we are refused, "bad luck for her":-)