REIGN OF LOVE

Reign of Love by Coldplay from their CD 'Viva la Vida or Death and all His Friends' ♥

Well faithful friends...if I have any left, its been quite a week, I must be feeling melancholy for I've written two sad poems and a quote in as many days. The second poem was a bit harsh but that was because I am hurting.
I have managed to lose a good friend and someone whom I thought the world of.

It all started with Valentines day you see, my favourite guy forgot me, though I made him a card and sent it.
But no 'thank- you' from him or anything resembling gratitude. No card for me, no flowers just a message as an afterthought... after the day. Gosh, haven't you guys ever heard of Interflora?
Its so nice to be remembered...say it with flowers.

A wise word of advice from one who knows.... now all of you single or available girls out there, those of you who still believe in love and romance...don't go looking for it on the Internet.

In fact don't even look for a true friendship there either...for it might start out nicely but fairly soon he will start some sweet talk and you will respond and you will think you're in love.
Not a very satisfying way to get some romance but words can be beautiful and say a lot... moments shared just like love letters, nothing seedy. You get so hooked on this guy you cant get enough of him he is just so lovely, you want to talk to him and share things with him all of the time and often and he seems to feel the same, everything is going beautifully.

Ah, but after a while he doesn't want an Internet relationship and tells you, of course you cant have a relationship...that monitor is a barrier and it gets in the way, no proper hugs or kisses or anything else...but those words have some compensations.
So friendship is OK if you can stick to it, but if you are like me and you're so in love you cant help yourself and you start slipping some romantic talk back into the conversation and that makes him angry. Well you cant blame him he is a man after all.

So you bombard him with a heap of e-mails in the hope that he will answer, you send him photos, pictures, he does too...well he does seem interested for such a long time...then gradually you get told not to send so many, he doesn't answer, you get concerned, you get berated for asking too many questions and taking up his time and pretty soon it all goes awry. You only wanted to hear from him and talk to him after all you are supposed to be his friend, you are supposed to be special... he doesn't see it that way...you are being far too demanding and you're keeping him from other things more important than you.

Then after a while you don't hear anything and you are tired of being ignored, thoughts of doubt creep into your mind, is there someone else, you feel a little jealous, gee some other girl might be getting all of those words from him that you have come to love so much and when you push the matter suddenly you aren't so attractive or special any more and you get dumped.
Not his fault, he needs someone real...but sadly you still love him.
So girls don't even go there.

I have decided to live my life more dangerously, really put myself out there, gosh its been such a long time since I've had any real loving, last time was with my estranged husband, about eleven years ago. Gosh what a long time between drinks.
In fact the next half decent guy who asks me out will be on a sure thing. I've already been 'popped' so what have I got to lose, just my self respect but where has that got me...lonely and nowhere...my self esteem got lost somewhere along the way ages ago.
Do I sound bitter? You bet I am...but then, I am in self-destruct mode.

So I will leave you with this music from Coldplay, please do listen to it as it is quite lovely, reminds me that I was once a true romantic and a believer in love...♥