Showing posts with label Saint Joan -John William Waterhouse. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Saint Joan -John William Waterhouse. Show all posts

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Where did I go wrong?



She thought she had found a true friend, a kindred spirit - but like most of the men in her life that had mattered to her, he was now rejecting her as well. Had she been too demanding, outspoken about her feelings for him, outstayed her welcome?
She pondered this as she sat there, his last words resonating in her head, tears pouring down her cheeks. She sobbed uncontrollably as she realised the finality of it all. It took her quite some time to regain her composure, then carefully she wiped away the tears and sat there in silence feeling completely abandoned.

Sometimes I wonder why I tried so hard to secure the affection of someone I loved so dearly. Was all of the rejection & sadness worth it in the end? Well at the time I thought so; I foolishly and somewhat naively believed that there would be a happy ending. Love can do that to you.By wanting more and pushing that point I ruined a perfectly good friendship, so what have I got to show for my over enthusiasm in seeking his love? Nothing, for now he wont even speak to me. Now wounded I am wiser, if you have to try so hard with someone and it is all one sided then it is not meant to be. You cannot make someone want you and love you, nor would it work if you could, it is something that has to be there and come naturally, otherwise it would not be worth having.